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STRUGGLE ANNICE DOUGLAS

"Attach resume file or upload and populate the fields" Of course, you chose to populate the fields, because you thought that once you did that, you'll be able to just glide through the application. Wrong. They don't populate those fields, and if they do, all of the words are in the wrong places and you have to fix it yourself anyway. I usually just end up throwing my computer against the wall and going to bed.

I thought I did the right thing. I graduated from high school, went to college, got my degree and got a full time job as a Toddler teacher in Chicago right after graduation. Let me tell you something, I LOVE kids, but not that much. That job took over my life. I worked long hours and I never had any time to go to auditions. I was miserable because I knew that I wanted to do more. So I moved back home to St. Louis and ended up having 3 jobs at one time just to have some flexibility and make ends meet. It was fun! I didn't have rent to pay, I was traveling all the time with my job, I had money coming from each direction, I bought a car and I was truly enjoying my life and living in the moment. I dedicated that time to banking money for my big move to LA. and in June 2015, I made it happen. Until a roach came and shattered my dreams. Sorry, I`m still really pissed and bitter about that.

Now here I am, 26 years old, back in the house with my mother, starting from scratch again, and drinking all of her wine. She be having the good kind though. I get to drink out of real crystal glasses instead of them red plastic cups. My mama classy. Day after day I`m filing out job applications because I`m tired of working those little odd jobs that insult my intelligence and my work ethic. Also, because I need some stability. Listen, I know there are people out there these days that will talk about you for having a regular 9-5, but the bills need to get paid today. That's fine, work on building your brand so that you don't have to work for anyone else, I'm doing the same. But in the mean time, get a job and pay your damn car note.

Also, I've been the friend that nobody can find lately. That's because I spent all my money on bills and I refuse to spend the last few dollars on going out. Plus, I only use my gas for work purposes. By November, I`ll come out and play again. I`m just trying to get back to the point where I'm able to just walk back to my room naked if I forgot my towel after the shower. Don't act like y'all ain't never forgot your towel and had to run back your room before somebody saw you.

Until then, I`ll be in my room. Every weekend. Staring at my old B2K poster. And I am ashamed of that.

-BRIT



 

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