Britney Annice

"I'm just not where I thought I would be by now." Happy June ya'll! This is the month that I look forward to each year. It's the beginning of summer, there's usually a vacation planned and most importantly, IT'S MY BIRTHDAY MONTH! I've never been the type to stress about my age or where I was in life according to a specific timeline. I just always thought those things would fall into place and take care of themselves. Early 20's Brit favorite line was " I ain't in no rush ". Why would I be? Everything seemed to be going according to plan. I went to college, I graduated, I got a job in my field (ended up hating it), I moved back home, moved to LA (just like I said I would). That plan fell through, I'm like it's cool, I'm only 26.  Year 26 Bounced back, moved to back to Chicago at 27, got a job, quit that job, got another job.  Year 27 By this time I'm 28 and I'm like "Damn, I'm getting clo...

"They must not have nobody to tell em" You know those people in life that everyone knows, "you can't tell them nothing"? They either shut you down when you offer them helpful information or advice, they listen to what you have to say and still do their own thing, or they just flat out get mad when you call them on their bullsh*t. Hi, it's me. I was once one of those people....Until I met my Mama... DUN DUN DUN . I have always been a very independent & opinionated person. But, I can also be very sensitive (I ain't no punk tho). Whenever I would do things and people wouldn't agree with my decision, I'd take offense and think they were being mean or unsupportive. Photo: A Selfie From The Back of My Phone Guys, sometimes disagreement is an act of love. You know when you've had one too many drinks on your birthday, you head to the bar for another and your friend stops you in your tracks and tells you "No More." That...

"Well, that's just a risk I'm willing to take." -Me, every time I break my diet to eat a donut. Happy April! I don't know how ya'll 2019 feels but I, personally would like to start this year over. Like, why is this year trying to fight us? Was it the wine I had on New Year's Eve? Was it the cheese plate? Is it because I didn't make an actual resolution? Whatever it is... I TAKE IT BACK, LORD. Now, if you've been following my journey here on Aintbritfunny, you know that I'm no stranger to taking risks. From moving across the country to follow a dream to quitting jobs I hate not knowing what was next. You know, all that scary stuff. The crazy part is, I sometimes enjoyed the rush that taking risks gave me. You usually go through 3 different steps: 1. Fear - "I should just do it... but hold on.." When you first get the idea of the risk, but you're afraid of the outcome. 2. Thrill - "Imma just do it! Matter of fact, ...

"When is it gone be my turn?" -Me at God 3 times an hour When I'm traveling back and forth to St. Louis, I usually prefer to drive. Not only because I can comfortably transport 4 loads of laundry to wash for free or bring back pieces of my Mama furniture, but mainly because I can be the one in control behind the wheel. I don't have to worry about the train being delayed, who I'll have to sit next to or what I'm going to snack on because please believe, I'm pulling over for some Chick-Fil-A at some point during that road trip. Patience has never really been my strong point. That's why this season of WAITING is killing me. Being in control has always been something that is very important to me. Now hold on... before ya'll dudes start getting scared to date me because you think that I'm controlling, let me explain myself. Photo: I be taking these. Sit down. My whole life, I've always kind of felt like the underdog or late bloome...

"While ya'll being distracted by this, look what's happening over here..." Ya'll know exactly who those types of people are on your friends list, don't you? You can't share a few funny memes, indulge in a hot topic discussion or post pictures of your lit brunch without somebody saying "Some of ya'll black folks be worried about the wrong thing!" And yes, some black folks ARE worried about the wrong thing BUT some black folks can worry about more than one thing at once. I mean damn, don't ya'll want a break sometimes? Photo: My Mama. Today's topic is on being BLACK AND CAREFREE . I wanted to make some heart warming post about black folks being able to be happy even in the face of adversity. Being able have joy and be aware at the same time. I had all intentions of posting photos of myself and my friends full of smiles. Making jokes about being black, educated and well spoken but being able to turn that off to be b...

"I just don't understand why this is happening to me." -Me, during any minor inconvenience. How many times has unexpected change come knocking and busting down your door before you even had a chance to put on your drawers and get ready for it? For me, more times than I can count. In the past few weeks of January, we've discussed change of habits, unexpected change and changing the way you deal. But, we haven't discussed ALLOWING change to happen. Sometimes, we can see change coming. We don't know when, but sooner or later it's going to happen. And sometimes, we may even try to intercede in order to prevent it. So peep this: I used to struggle with the thought of someone not liking me. I never wanted to be the person to make someone upset, ruffle feathers or cause confrontation. (Now, don't get me wrong; if you come for me, you can have these hands but, I'd rather not, okay?) Ya'll, do you have any idea how hard it is to NOT piss someon...

"Whatever will be, will be." Okay, I'm going to be all the way real with ya'll. Sometimes, it's hard for me to "grin and bare it". When Change happens unexpectedly, I want to cry, cuss, lock myself into a room, turn off my phone, eat a bunch of stuff that's gonna make me fat and feel sorry for myself. The reality is, I can't always do that because I have a job to go to and bills to pay which won't allow me to stay in bed drowning in my disappointment. And that's a good thing because anxiety attacks are no joke. Photo: Me, I took this. Let me be transparent: Something that I always let stress me out is money. Every weekend, I sit and redo my budget to figure a way to pay my bills ahead of time so that I won't get caught up so easily. Sometimes, that works in my favor, most times, it doesn't. When that happens, I get upset and find myself in a stank attitude for a few hours, thinking about how I'm damn near 30 and j...

"New year, New me." -All of ya'll, every year Well, since we're still in December and on the subject of gifts, let's talk about the gift of a FRESH START . Nah, I'm not talking about you calling your ex back and acting like you weren't trash for the bulk of the year. You need to get left in 2018. I'm talking about truly stepping back, reflecting and taking action in new ways. Now, I know a lot of people roll their eyes when folks start talking about the things that they want to do differently in the new year, how they about to be skinny and how they not bringing all that negative energy into this new chapter. And yea, they might be a little extra with it, but that's the beauty of a reset. Photo: Britney Annice I used to think that New Year's resolutions meant that I had done something wrong and needed to change it. Like this was my time to reflect on my mistakes, my weight, my eating habits, my career and change everything about ...

"Tis' the season of giving!" Welcome to my favorite time of year. Christmas! The hot drinks, the lights, the music, the delicious treats all just make me feel so warm and fuzzy inside. Not to mention the gifts... which none of ya'll are getting this year. Look man, I'm in the middle of building a brand, paying bills and turning 30 in 2019. Ya'll better take these blogs and this smile and get somewhere and sit down. Besides, have you even used the gifts that you got years ago? Nah, I'm not talking about that waffle maker your mama 'nem got you in 2011. I'm talking about the GIFTS that you were already born with. Your PURPOSE for being here in the first place. Photo: Sierra Campbell The year was 2006. I was finishing up my junior year of high school and was still uncertain and very insecure about attending college. However, my parents made it very clear that I did not have a choice on whether or not I went to college. I was going and ...

"Family over everything." For the month of November, I’ve been discussing some of the things that I’m thankful for. I couldn’t end this month without talking about my family! They are not only my support system but also my friends. Watch as I turn the camera on them to find out what they’re thankful for! P.S. I'm still learning how to vlog and I couldn't quite figure out how to get music on here. But, I did figure out how to do voice overs... so I made my own theme music. It's about to get weird, guys. Enjoy! And subscribe to my YouTube channel to get updates on my monthly vlogs! -BRIT

"Oh Imma do that anyway, Imma do that anyway cause that's how I am." -The Internet Auntie First of all, shout out to all of the people that only need one alarm to wake them up in the morning and never hit the snooze button. That's some different kind of drive & determination. We will not be discussing that kind here, today. Do you ever feel like you just have about one more fail left in you before you give up? Or like you must be doing something wrong because you're not where you thought you should be? Or that you're just not getting anywhere so what's the point anyway, right? Yeah. Same here. But, I got news for you, if you were supposed to give up, then you wouldn't have been given one more day to get up and try again. Photo: Sierra Campbell When I was a Sophmore in college, I had an end of the year evaluation with one of my acting professors. In this meeting, she told me "Acting might not be for you. Maybe you should consid...

"It sounds like you got trust issues." Ya'll remember when we talked about vulnerability a few weeks ago? Well, I feel like that and this week's topic of TRUST go hand in hand. When I put my trust into someone, I expect them to do right by me. And when you don't do right by Britney, you gotta catch these hands. I trusted you, even though you got a booty chin. Just kidding, I've never trusted anyone with a booty chin. Photo: Yajaira Suriel So look, I'm a bit of a loner. Always have been (See "LONELINESS" post). I never felt like I needed a whole lot of people around me because I don't fool with ya'll like that anyway. I can always tell when something is off about a person. I often try to see things through and tell myself "Maybe it's not what you think" but every time I've tried to give someone the benefit of the doubt, they end up showing me why I can't trust people. Let me see if I can give you a short lis...

"You gotta get some 'don't give a damn' in you!" Remember when I told ya'll that I was going to start facing my fears in the month of October? Well, vlogging is one of them. I always thought I needed a professional camera, a makeup artist and maybe a studio audience to laugh on que before I did a vlog. Turns out, I only needed my iPhone and my well lit bathroom. I heard ya'll got a short attention span these days and don't like to read. That's too bad. Because imma still write. But for now, enjoy this very low budget movie about Self Promotion ! See ya'll next week. -BRIT

"It's cool, I can just go by myself." Okay so, I hope you didn't come on this post looking for something sad. I'm not the one that's gone cry with you today. Alexa, play "Not Gone Cry" by Mary J. Blige. Photo: Sierra Campbell You know, I used to think that it was weird for me to feel lonely. I never even wanted to hear myself say that word. I thought that meant that it was something wrong with me and saying it out loud would make it too real. You would think that I'd be used to it by now. I spent 6 years, miles away from my family, starting at the age of 18, while I was in school. After that, I moved half way across the country, alone. Then, I picked up and moved miles away again and here we are. Alone . On a cold October night. My whole life, I've been surrounded by love. I was blessed to be born into a family where the time and attention was plentiful. I never had to worry about having someone to talk to because they were a...

"I don't want all them people looking at me!" It's October! So I want to get real spooky with ya'll on this here blog. For the rest of this month, I'll be talking about some of the things that scare me. I know what you're thinking right now, "Damn Brit, I thought you was a real gangsta. Gangstas don't get scared." Hold on homie, let me explain... I'm a pretty outgoing person. I always have been...around my family. Most people didn't even know I could talk until I was 15. That's a little bit of an exaggeration but you know what I mean. I had to pick and choose who I showed my personality around. Because if anyone knew how silly I was or that I liked to dress up as different characters and perform for my family, they would make fun of me and I'd be the weird girl with the glasses. Photo: Sierra Campbell I've always felt so awkward being the center of attention. Something about it gave me the creeps. And sometime...

"It will happen, just be patient." So, within the past 4 weeks of September, I've been making a conscious effort to look within myself and try to become a better me. Because sometimes, I'm not living my best life and I am going back and forth with ya'll. *Alexa? Play "Smile (Living My Best Life)" by Lil Duval.* Photo: Sierra Campbell I started off the first week by being DISCIPLINED enough to gain control over my thoughts, emotions and actions. The second week, I made it a point to FOCUS on making conscious efforts to have a positive attitude and remember why I set goals for myself in the first place. Last week, I wanted to make sure that I stayed CONSISTENT in those goals and to hold myself accountable at all times. But, with all of that being said, I have to remember to be PATIENT with myself in the process. I feel like for the past 2 years, I've been spazzing out about turning 30. I can't even begin to tell you all of the...

"What's the point?" After you discipline yourself to get on the path to achieve certain goals, you must remain focused on the prize. Whatever that may be. That's why I chose FOCUS as this week's word. I have always had a problem in this area of my life. I mean, from the time I was a little girl. It would really wear my parents out. Them: "Britney, go downstairs, look on the table, grab the envelope inside of the book that's on the table and bring it to me." Me: *Goes downstairs* "Where ya'll say the book was?" My mind drifted off somewhere between them saying go downstairs and bring it to me . As I've gotten older, I've gotten a little better. But now, my lack of focus shows in different ways. Sometimes, I can't concentrate on my craft because I'm to busy thinking about the negative aspects of it. " I don't know why I'm doing this, it's not getting me anywhere " or " This is pointle...

"I got this." "I hate asking for help." "I can do this by myself." For a very long time, I thought that asking for help made me look weak. It was crazy. It's like, I felt as though I had something to prove to the world by showing folks that I didn't need them. I mean, I didn't even like men buying me drinks at the club. Shoot, they were eventually going to want something in exchange for that drink and I ain't got it. So, that was my outlook in every situation. People only do things for you in expectation of receiving something. Which is not always true. Photo: Seirra Campbell Hell, if any of ya'll brothas are reading this, I could use that drink right about now. A couple of weeks ago, I attended an event called "Keep it Colorful". One of the panelist was Erika Alexander. She shared the story of her journey as an actor/ creator and gave lots of wonderful advice. Something she said that really stuck with me was, yo...

"You're still young, you've got time." "You don't need to be worried about that right now." Look man, I know that a lot of people mean well when they say these things. Usually, they want you to take comfort in the fact that you're younger than them and they also just don't know what else to say to you. It's like the equivalent of expressing your feelings to a black person and them hitting you with a " Itta be aight " or a " Damn, that's crazy ." Can I just be blunt with ya'll? Ain't nobody trying to hear that. Plus, who told ya'll that tomorrow was promised? Anything could happen. Good or bad. Something that I have learned is that everyone's path is not the same. Neither is everyone's thought process. For example, what I am ready for at the age of 29, may not be what you were thinking about at my age. So, in your mind, it seems like I'm too young but in reality, it's just the way tha...

"LEARN SOMETHING FROM THIS!" -Tyra Banks (Remember when she said that on America's Next Top Model?) Well guys, we've reached the end. I've finally made it to the last year of my twenties. That means, this is my last year to be foolish with ya'll but after that, imma grow up. For real. Lately, I've been doing a lot of reminding myself to slow down and try to live more in the moment. It seems as if one day, I just looked up and my 20's were damn near gone. In my early twenties, my favorite phrase was, "No rush, I got time." But now, I've reached the end and I don't feel ready. Okay so, you know how you wake up early, press the snooze button for 5 more minutes, and then you press it again, and maybe even one more time? But when you finally get up and look at the time, you gotta hurry up, get breakfast, get dressed, drink some coffee and now you're running out of the house with one earring on.  That, my friends, is how I...